So hi there fellas! I hope you've all been well!
Thanks for all the prayers, good wishes and any kind of mental/physical support - it means a lot and I really started to feel like I'm not completely alone in this.
I've been working, animating, writing, inking and I spent quite the amount of time sulking and thinking about the future and things I did wrong.
There was a kind of switch inside of me that turned from ON to OFF and suddenly I was completely calm even knowing that I won't be able to pull the whole movie off till deadline.
The school prolonged the deadline from end of January to end of March, but being totally worn off/disguisted by various things/including my self/tired/unmotivated... I didn't have any strength left to finish the movie.I went to discuss things with the education department and the sub-dean only to find out that the dean never planned to let anyone graduate in August.
(so I was doomed from the very start, haha)...I can't really blame him, since many students tend to make everything till the last possible moment, which sometimes escalates into big problems. He needed to draw the line and I guess I just got caught up into this. (although .... I am basically very lucky because I really needed some kick to get things done and sort out my problems).
This really forced me to think about many many things and even though it ended up like this, I don't regret a thing. I was doing what I could at the time and if it wasn't enough, then I need to move on.So now I'll be studying for one more year and I have approx 10 months to finish the whole movie. I already have half of it done, technically, and I only need to animate 43 more scenes to have the whole thing animated.
The backgrounds are a real pain and I'll probably have to change my way of work to get those done too. The biggest problem is the outlines and coloring which takes immense amounts of time for me. But I have a few good friends to help me out, even if it's just a little bit
Now that I have more time I can be calmer and the coloring doesn't rush anymore. But I'll have to keep watch over my procrastinating and really make the most of this second chance.
The only unpleasant thing is that I will have to pay a fat sum of money to the school and the feeling of being "stuck" in one place/point in life will remain for a little longer. But I am really really happy. The heavy stress and the feeling of a heavy load dissappeared now and my family also calmed down a bit. They went through the same stress with me - seeing me suffer everyday for things I somehow couldn't really sort out was a heavy burden for them. It made me the more sad.When the whole situation calms down a bit more, I'll probably slowly start uploading some things and get back to the comic
Don't expect too much but I am really looking forward to refresh Terrace.
So that's all for the news, hope you had a better start into this spring because seriously, these past 10 months have been brutal for me.
Take good care!
OMG GAI DON'T YOU DARE KICK THE BUCKET NO!!!!(ngh, Lee's team is falling completely apart T__T; Kishimoto, you cruel monster you. I really should finish the LeeTen thing to brighten this mood up).