IT.
IS.
HAPPENING.
OH DEAR GOD.
ANIME STAFF.
WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?


PREVIEW>
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So apparently, the next filler 306 will be about Neji and Hinata.
Because they need to deepen their bond and make viewers sob so that they can butcher Neji in the most painful way possible later.

On the other hand. Kishimoto-sensei, you need fillers to deepen the bonds of characters. That's no good D:

And on a third note> I AM SO HAPPY. It hurts so bad, but I am so happy that the anime staff actually wants us to believe,what the nejihina fandom has seen a decade ago.
Maybe the episode will be just a dissapointing filler...but they have 100 points for TRYING.
I CAN'T WAIT TILL NEXT WEEK NGH!

AND ROAD TO NINJA IS ONLINE ON NARUTOGET.COM.

Thank you for everything, I'm sorry for being silent lately - I'm having loads of things on my shoulders, mostly school-related things that are deadlined, so there's no time to draw now.
Just wanted to thank you for all the lovely comments, notes and general support
And new watchers - WELCOME!

Terrace will be updated soon, I haven't given up on it!!! (but I have to admit that all the nejihina in SD series and anime recently are almost suffocating me .... I came to the conclusion that the staff is a bunch of sadists who like suffering heartbroken fans and want to rub more nejihina into our faces till the time comes when Neji dies in the anime, too.... And it's not Neji being all brotherly toward Hinata, trust me... at least in the SD universe, that is. Even if it's a parody, it's still nejihina, people see it and feel it and it makes us suffer.... )

And if you havent heard about an anime called CHIHAYAFURU - I must say, ONE OF THE BEST RECENT JOSEI SHOWS OUT THERE, CHECK IT OUT! It has action on par with shonen sporty series, yet, still keeps a nice amount of romance without being too cheesy.
Karuta seems like a beautiful traditional game, so I learned a few new things about Japan once again!

Take good care guys!!
Have a nice start into spring and see you soon, hopefully!

Just thought I might share the love for NaruSaku/NejiHina/LeeTen with a few wonderful AMVs I've found
So if you have a few minutes to spare and love these couples, make your self comfy and take some popcorn and enjoy!

NARUSAKU
This one sums pretty much up why NaruSaku is so wonderful, dynamic, awesome, full of energy and wit and love.
All the colorful emotions and experience that connects them - from sad to happy things have made this couple one of my most favourite fictional couples in a story!

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NEJIHINA
Most AMVs about these two have this really sad, melancholic taste to it. I adore it much although I'd appreciate if someone tried to make an actually happy one :'D Was hard to pick from all those wonderful AMVs.
These make me want to hug a pillow and cry, yet, are so mature and beautiful.

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(the only happy ones are being made from the SD series :'D Neji, you melodrama lover you)
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LEETEN
Unfortunately, there aren't many good LeeTen AMVs out there TAT even though there's plenty of material (guess the NejiTen waltzed this over XD Haha). But these two are very cute:

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A crack trailer ;D
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this one made me laugh, it's kind of rude
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AND FOR THOSE WHO DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT SHIPS BUT LOVE NARUTO - I HIGHLY RECOMMEND THIS ONE. IT'S ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING THINGS THAT HAPPENED RECENTLY ;D (except for the SR71 AMV and the Shangrila one, but those are very old, this one's quite recent)

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Not gonna' review every chapter, ho-ho, seriously...no :'D
But dear God, all the kages there again..... I-it's gettin kinda intense XD And...a bit...cramped? There's so much extreme things happening that it's hard to swallow each week. I have absolutely no idea where this is going, seriously.
I miss Sakura and with each chapter I'm growing more and more nervous as to what Kishimoto prepared for her D: I hope she will finally get the chance to prove that she cares about Naruto and can kick ass!
And...is it just me or ...is Orochimaru being kind of "soft"? I remember when he appeared for the first time and sent shiver down my spine :'D He was the ultimate villain and now he seems kind of content with everything. He calmed down to the point where he feels almost out of character, haha (still not oddly-adorable like in the SD series XD)

And remember when Lee promised Sakura to protect her at the cost of his own life?
With Neji gone.... I hope....nothing will happen to Lee. Lee or Sakura getting hurt at this point...I don't know if I could handle that... Oh dear.

SPOILEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
SPOILEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
SPOILEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR








first of all...THE CRUDE CRUDE DRAWINGS,OH BOY!!! >__<; It seems Kishimoto had a rough time with his assistants, because the drawings really....sucked...compared to the previous chapters. Heck, even the eyes were all shifted :'D
For those who don't know - at times like these, the drawings are re-made for the tankobon-printing (tankobons are full volumes, paperbacked with color specials or some special info and drawings - basically, what you buy on the shelves when the volume is printed out. I am absolutely sure this chapter will have a remake, because, ouch.... Sasuke's and Naruto's eyes....:'D man).




So guys..... *inhale*exhale*
WHERE THE EF IS SAKURA!?
:'D
Okay, I shouldn't panick,right? It's just that ever since Neji didn't appear in the XY chapter and I was all "where's Neji"and then he got....killed.... This makes me twirl on my chair.
The fact she had such a nice color-cover tribute means she'll play an important role in the next chapters - hopefully, she'll finally be able to stand by Naruto's side and fight properly alongside him, like everyone else. It's what she wished for - literally-in the 60th volume. "We will be together.... no matter what you say". I think that time she may have reffered to her confession. She truly meant it, I believe and she's already prepared in the ring's corner with her boxing gloves on to fight for her place as the main heroine. Kishimoto just needs to ring the bell and I'm sure she'll be amazing as ever.
I really love her character and she's kickass, after all the screentime the other kunnoichi got, she needs to shine.
Hinata once again was useful - repaired Naruto's broken shoulder. Well...made me scream for Sakura. Sakura-chan!!!C'MON! You're a medic!

The chapter moved me to tears again, although...oogosh the cheese :'DD It's really cheesy, but I can't complain - I like cheesy things to an extent. After all the heartbreaking events, Neji's spirit in the form of a bigass chakra bird filled with ninjas who cuts the stupid juubi was kind of just the slap I needed. (made me laugh, since I didn't notice at first).
AND LEE BABY, YOU ARE AMAZING AND I LOVE YOU!!!GO!!!GO AND SHOW THEM!!!!
Seriously, one couldn't stay cold to Lee's sincere brotherly love toward his rival. The flashback and the dialogue was THE thing that almost made me cry again (almost).
And Neji's abandoned body on the battlefield.... He was so tiny....... I felt....really bad.
I thought I am finally kind of over his death, but noooooo, Kishimoto-sensei's flashback-attack stabbed my poor fangirl heart once again X'D

I'm not sure anymore, whether or not Neji will be revived (I'm prepared for the worst but I'm still expecting the best).... but I never expected for him to play such a big role. He's basically the spirit of the united shinobi now...that's...really SOMETHING,ne?
Hiashi's constant remorses make me feel weird in my stomach - is he going to sacrifice him self? Is Neji going to be revived thanks to him? Even Tobito noted on the Hyuuga clan - this still isn't a closed up issue.

I'm eagerly waiting for the next chapter!!!
I remember how Naruto's popularity dropped on mangafox's page from nr1 to...idk...10? Or even less.... But now, it got boosted up to nr 2 again! Well done, Kishie! You make us think about Naruto and the plotline again!

You can read it here:
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Highfive no jutsu is the most powerful jutsu after talk-no-jutsu, don't forget!!!
(and I'm in tears again, but this time, it's more pleasant)

I did my first MMV .....
I almost cried.......

Various feelings.....but I hope you like.
WARNING> if NejixHinata is too much for you to handle, SKIP THIS. It's for your own good....

For everyone else:
WARNING> might break your heart..... (but I hope it's worth it)
CLICK
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..
Without tragic character deaths in manga and anime,
lots of OTP love
lots of energy for useful things
lots of endurance and strenght for work/school/art/anything specific you need it for.
lots of peace
lots of understanding
lots of patience with ........*insert anything of your choice ;D *

AND A LIVELY NEJI TAT

Take care guys!

EDITING THE JOURNAL AFTER SEEING CHAPTER 615....




SPOILERS FOR 615 AHEAD!!!










Today's Hinata's birthday (DEc 27).
She had finally grown to be confident, her wish to be by NAruto's side and hold his hand is officially fullfilled in the most obvious way possible. I won't deny that aas much as I don't like naruhina, I feel happy for Hinata. She really deserved to be finally noticed by NAruto and be rewarded for her lifelon effort to do something for him and be useful to the person she loves.
I'm glad it happened...

And for the fellow narusaku fans - as much as the naruhina shippers go into celebration, I don't think this is it for the narusaku fandom. Actually....this chapter I view as a dot after the naruhina. Kishimoto has fullfilled Hinata's wish (which she deserved), he had shown that girls in love who won't give up can win the attention of their loved ones. Hinata will now fight side by side with NAruto - and at the same time, she accepted NEji's wish and learned so much from it, even using it as fuel to wake up Naruto from his depression. But I think this is all there will be to naruhina - because, let's face it, NAruto isn't ficle. He's EVERYTHING BUT FICKLE. He's love for Sakura is real and I don't think he'd just sudenly love Hinata just because she slapped him once. I think this was more like accepting her as a shinobi and comrade who is by his side. HE finally noticed how much Neji and Hinata had done for him and he won't give up now.
But from this point on, I think .... narusaku has an even better chance now. Not that it matters at this moment, though. Because....it looks like things are about to get real now The war is at its climax. NO TIME FOR SHIPPING WARS GUYS, Just sail your ships till the end and be kind to each other!!! I accept this as a very strong naruhina moment, no doubt. But I still think it's more one sided love but respect on both sides now.


I just thought about Neji's death and realized, that if narusaku were to happen instead of naruhina, Kishimoto wouldn't have any other choice, than to revive Neji!!

Reason?
HINATA'S POPULARITY. She's one of those characters who really deserve a happy end - the truly happy end for her would be in some fan's eyes that she wins Naruto's heart. In my opinion, the best ending for her would be to realize her strengths and becoming a proper Hyuuga, while finally taking her role seriously and accepting the love f the people around her. But this is not the point - the point is, if NAruto and Sakura would end up together, with Neji gone she'd be left completely lonely.

The story would let her suffer under all thesde things at the same time:

1- let her  lose a precious person and basically the only male in the series who actually seemed to openly care for her in a special way, and basically the only male who besides her father shared a deeper history with her
2- being heartbroken, most probably..or simply, suffering unrequited feelings (and her goals would crumble, since winning NAruto seemed like her only true goal ever since the start of Shippuuden)
3-having to live under the burden of Neji's death in the Hyuuga estate (which she'd blame onto her self for sure), with Hanabi as the next in lineage (according to her father's words)

All these things would probably happen, if Neji wouldn't be revived and narusaku became canon.

For me, NaruSaku is already becomming canon from most part (only Sakura needs a lil' push to realize it completely).

Which leads to the conclusion, that Neji truly has to be revived to save Hinata once more from suffering under the burdens of the three mentioned probabilities.
(go Neji, SAVE HER!)
Thus, I will crave for narusaku even mor now, since it is possible that it could save Neji's life :'D (not that I wouldn't ship it before, I ship it like wild of course )

I think this does make sense.... I have no idea, how NAruto will continue from chapter 614 onwards... so this is basically just a thought. But a thought worth the share

...Chapter 614.

In.

My.

Face.

Right in my face.

In my gut.

Why.

Just.....

why....

Although....I had this strange feeling ever since Neji didn't appear. And today - even while walking the dog, I thought about what happens in the next chapter.... And actually, death of a Hyuuga member DID cross it. But somehow I thought that maybe Hiashi will save his daughter and die. But hell, no. It had to be the "genius" of Konoha - I should've known better. Or rather, I tried to ignore this bad gut feeling and believed that noone from Konoha 11 will die - that they'll make it. Damn. This is really really bad.
I'm out of energy....

I don't even feel like crying, seriously..... I just feel kinda' empty...haha.

God.

But this may sound as total drama, don't worry guys, it's not like I'll be ripping my clothes apart and cry into the pillow (well, maybe cry into the pillow later.... :'D) But....I somehow can't believe this.Really. I can't.

GOD, AND I DREW THAT PICTURE YESTERDAY.

Sorry for this horrible trash of a journal entry X'DD I just... I don't even know what.

I AM UTTERLY CONFUUUUUSED!
;///; Enraged even...? Or too strong of a word there?

I hope Kishimoto keeps "Naruto" being the story HE wants to make - not being like a chess  piece to all the powerful editors. I mean... I love Hinata way too much, but .... I don't think she has ever matched Naruto in the way Sakura did and he never seemed to be interested in Hinata AT ALL....
although, let's face it - Hinata has a BACKGROUND, while Sakura is left kinda' ..... pale, in comparision to her, even though she's the main heroine. Kishimoto said that Hinata would've made a better main heroine by now...but heck, Kishie, YOU CAN'T JUST JUMP LIKE THIS! Why is Hinata standing so close to NAruto there? <8'D Why does he want to impress her all so suddenly??(like Kiba said).

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Please, please.....don't...mess with the plot, Kishie-sensei. Don't.....mess up the shippers.... please.

:'D

I sense the NaruSaku vs NaruHina flame buuuurn soooo strooong now.



And where the heck is Neji?? Where is he, I can't friggin'see him in that bigass (and pretty cool) ninja-crowd. Even Tenten's there X'DD Neji, are you neglecting your duties again? Or are you sulking a kilometer away  because NAruto's the main thing? (I would laugh hard if this were the actual case....)

Which is...another thing that made me almost eat paper tissues - I really like strong main characters, that shine and rise from ashes and give it their best. But not till the point where the other ones start to look all useless.
I sense that Kishimoto-sensei's trying to portray how important support the side-characters are to NAruto and how he wouldn't be able to rise up if it weren't for his family, friends, his "nakama"....

But seeing him rescue everything everytime everywhere in a second..... without giving others the chance to be useful....that's kinda'.... frustrating.
I wouldn't have minded if Hinata were to be saved by Kiba, SHino....or in best case friggin' Neji (dude, you need to PROTECT HER!!).

I know that the poor thing's been deceived and the war started without him noticing... But what was so endearing on the story in the first 28 volumes - the side characters backgrounds being explained WITHOUT the connection to the MAIN CAST.

WITHOUT the connection to Naruto.

This made them STAND OUT, it gave them PERSONALITY, their own goals and life, their own pains and struggles.... and it made them appear so colorful and interesting. Various people found them selves empathize with various characters.
But after another 30 volumes I have the feeling that everyone's way too focused on either Naruto or Sasuke.... and the whole thing is loosing the taste of colorfulness. The only exception probably is the Team 10 -thing. The InoShikaCho. They have their beautiful little world with Asuma and Kurenai in it, their "formation" that actually has a history. They have their own side-story that is still being evolved and explained. While all the others seem to be stagnating a lot or being neglected.

What about Shino? Kiba? Sai and team Gai? What about the Hyuuga?


But back to the main point - Naruhina vs Narusaku>

Sorry for this ridiculous journal, but I'd be very very dissapointed (even to the point of flipping a table) if Kishimoto turned the story and the relations of the characters into some ridiculous way just because Hinata is getting more popularity than Sakura.
Not mean to bash NaruHina or insult the NaruHina shippers, no way. I'm just stating an opinion - and in that opinion, Sakura needs to end up with Naruto......forget about Sasuke.....and stop acting ridiculously awkward (like in the fake confession chapter).

Anyone with me on this chapter? ;__;
Because I'm seriosuly scared that NAruSaku might be in danger XD (not that it would matter in real life, though XD well...maybe......a lil bit.....XDD )

The first few pages are uploaded, feel free to read

A few notes on the comic:

- READ FROM LEFT TO RIGHT! Like a normal western comic, since I'm working on many other projects which are read in western style, I didn't want to confuse my brain more so I let this one western too.

- supports NejiHina, NaruSaku, LeeTen - feel free to read, even if you don't like the ships, maybe you'll find something precious there.

- comments: are allowed, feel free to state opinions, but please, don't jerkbend.... I like the NejixHinata pairing, because it's very heartwrenching. The whole story about the Hyuuga clan deserves attention and Hinata has been one of the characters that changed me a lot. Neji's attitude toward her had been something I've encountered many times in my life in extremity and the way he changed and has become so much more gentle and protective of her is something I wish every girl who had been bullied by boys and felt worthless would experience. It's inspiring and refreshing. And don't even make me started about how in Japan cousin marriages are common and all this crap.... It's fiction, feel the esence of it, please....

- medium: if anyone is interested, I'm pre-sketching with pencil and lining with a 0.5 and 0.3 black liner. Scanned and edited in PS. That's all. I know it's not much and you can't compare the quality with TUQ, but this is all I can do in the little spare time I have. Hope the cleanness of the art will be likable.

- I can't upload regularly but I hope it's gonna be worth the wait, here and there.

- forgive grammar mistakes, I'm not native of any English-speaking land or country.

- THIS IS FICTION OF FICTION

- I beg you, don't steal it. If you want to try and color some pages, if you want to make an AMV or translate....I BEG YOU GUYS, SEND ME A NOTE!!!!!!!!!! It's not such hard work to ask about permission. But it's hard work to produce the comic, so please, respect me as the author and ASK. Also - you won't ever get any better of you don't work hard your self. Stealing and tracing things will only make you feel bad.

- TUMBLR> click-through links are okay with me.

-ENJOY!

Hi guys!

So I've finally caught up with Naruto SD series (known as Rock-Lee's springtime of youth)...I can only say...BRAVO, STAFF! You've reawoken my love for Naruto! I think the SD series had filled the huuuuge gap I felt ever since the Great ninja-war arc started...
I missed the characters, the interactions, the personal stories and wit...developement. With the SD, I finally feel closer to the characters

AND.....I had been overwhelmed with emotions, since the series seems to support all my favourite pairings T/////T
NaruSaku, LeeTen, NejiHina, ShikaTema ...

And the NejiHina bit.....that...that has grabbed me by the heart quite forcefully.
So forcefully that I decided to make a doujinshi. I'll start slowly uploading it here with hopes that haters gonna be kind and that you guys will enjoy it. Since I have way too much work, with another fancomic as well (from the Portal series over at   ), the uploads will be irregular and probably slow. It also isn't going to be a long-time-running thing, like the TUQ...but I do have a feeling that it will be at least 40, 50 pages (but one never knows...).

Story is called "Terrace", NejiHina and NaruSaku present, with a breeze of LeeTen.
The first 20 pages are sketched, I still don't know whether to leave it in pencil or not. I need to work quick....

So.... Yeah...I hope this one step will revive and refresh this account at least a bit. The main action is still focused on the raintalker-one, though.

Thanks for all the watches, favs and very kind comments (to which I can't reply, sorry....T__T There's too much of them and I can't handle it).
So a big heart to you all

Many of you clicked the watch button with the hope that TUQ might continue or that I might put up another Naruto doujinshi.
There are quite many of you who watched me for a very long time and walked side by side with the updates on the doujin and other works...
I am very grateful to all who consider me worth the watch, I am happy for every comment and positive or constructive feedback.
Kudos to you

The real point of this journal, though, is to clear up what might come in the future and what ends:

- THE UNEASY QUESTION /

I still haven't completely given up on the special pages but somehow I can't really get to create them now.
I don't want to "keep the extra pages as a hostage" - wielding them in the air as some sort of invisible promise to all watchers who liked TUQ.
THESE EXTRA PAGES MAY TAKE THEIR TIME...OR...IN THE WORST CASE - If I won't find the "spark"again for this, they might not happen

It's been a very long time now since I really enjoyed Naruto like before - the latest chapters are a bit dissappointing for me, although it will still remain my younghood and I will love Kishimoto and Naruto series forever.
But truth to be told - I am not that kind of person to force my self to make a comic just for the sake of the comic to "exist". I need to find something interesting in it, a message to be told, I need to feel and like the characters.
Since my Naruto-fandom days are over from the most part, I guess I wouldn't be able to make those pages or Naruto-comics and view them as a hobby - they would be just an obligation toward you, dear watchers. The quality of a work done as a n obligation is questionable....
I've been here many times before, wrote journals with promises to you.... Now's the time to face it as a whole thing - AND I WRITE IT IN CAPS JUST IN CASE.....

THOSE, WHO ARE WAITING FOR TUQ TO CONTINUE, PLEASE, DON'T WAIT FOR IT. MAYBE, IN THE NEAR FUTURE, I'LL BE ABLE TO PUT UP THE EXTRAS, BUT IT WON'T BE AS FANCY AND LONG AS THE ORIGINAL TUQ. I AM VERY VERY SORRY FOR LETTING YOU WAIT THIS LONG JUST TO WRITE THIS EXCUSE.
I AM VERY GRATEFUL FOR ALL YOUR LOVE AND COMMENTS FILLED WITH HAPPINESS AND A GOOD TIME.

I've learned a lot from you, I hope you enjoyed the series, that it maybe fulfilled some fangirl/fanboy dreams of yours (well, it worked for me, yes X'D NARUSAKU4EVER).

I am aching to make Naruto fanart, though. It's been ages since I drew it, I have some unfinished sketches, so if you are sad about TUQ being finished, I hope this will brighten it up a bit.

But again,NARUTO WON'T BE THE MAIN PART OF MY UPDATES HERE, ANYMORE. I AM SORRY.

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- ATLA AND KORRA

With Korra on the way to the fandom world, I might put up some Korra and ATLA related fanarts. TOKO, MAKKORA and other related stuff. I really loved the first two episodes and everything else seems very promising
You might expect fanarts of the series as well.


- ORIGINAL ARTWORK AND PORTAL 1 AND 2 FANART, RATTMANN COMICS:

If you liked my original art and/or are a fan of the Portal games, I'll be very happy if you'll follow me on my second account, which is dedicated mostly to these two themes.
I'm running a fan-comic with more than 100 pages now, called "Tenacity" and "CatRat", which is the thing I am putting a lot of effort and love in.
These two comics are an alternate view on the story of Chell and Rattmann and on things that happened between the end of Portal 1 and the LabRat comic.
Ever since the first pages people seem to enjoy it, so if it made you curious, enjoy it with them

BLUE FLAME  project and its fragments are also to be found there. The original comic is in progress, I've sketched over 300 pages now and I might start putting it up in the future, too.
I am still not quite sure what I want to do with it, the storyline is changing a lot with my writing and the story it self is yet to find it self.
It's a comic about dreams, meaning of love toward others and your self. A bit of sci-fi, romance, horror,  comedy....who knows what else.

For the Blue Flame small fragments and for the Portal craze, follow

- SAMURAI JACK-

I still love this show, I will love it forever, the same as with Naruto. I might draw some tributes to it in the future, but watching me just for this would probably only dissapoint you.

- OTHER FANART, MAYBE REQUESTS AND OTHER

This account will be probably used for other fanarts as well, since it's always been like this
This can be quite random.
I might work on requests or art-trades here.
And maybe I'll put some remakes of original stuff.



So, once again, thank you for all your time and comments.

Thank you for being so patient and lovable.

Enjoy.

And whether you decide to keep watching me or not, it's all up to you and I will respect all of those decisions.

Take care and good luck!

Animal cruelty on a whole new level...
but what one wouldn't do for soccer and tourists. They need to keep the streets "clean", right?

Please, read the very short article and if you want, sign the petition....

Here:
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...to EVERYONE!



Have a merry Christmas time and may the next year be even merrier for you!
I wish you Lots of inspiration, lots of luck and health and lots of love from all the corners of your life!

Hello guys!!
Just passing by to say hello and BIG thank you for all the new watchers and comments that made my day!

I am seriously neglecting this account but I guess I was just being a sort of escapist, trying to breathe fresh air. Remember the other account?



Well, it started pretty much as an original only account....but I got hooked on Portal games and ended up flooooding it with fanarts to it....Because I really LOVE the game deeply.
If anyone feeling the same, feel free to stop by as well and browse
I think the other account is a bit more mature, in the means of quality of the art... (oh, you perverts, you). The love is so big that I have to draw or else it would ooze out and turn into fairy dust and tears.


As for this account> Even though I might look like I abandoned it, I didn't.
I remember the promises made here,
I will complete all the free sketches I promised.
And I will do the extra pages to the TUQ, because I also love IT deeply...and I love YOU guys.
Thank you for being my support!

I can't say when I start working and posting again.... Take it as a hiatus for now.... I don't want to go and spout strong words and then run away with a kufufu on my face Truth to be told, the Naruto-era in my life has probably reached its peak with the TUQ doujinshi and now it kind of fell down onto the ground. It's hard to make fanart when your affection isn't as strong as it was. I didn't want to push it and do it only "because it should get done"...it would be disrespectful toward you, me and Kishimoto....
(I am making a big deal out of this, ain't I? Friggin' drama queen.... that's what I am nowz...sorryTAT)

So, I'll take some more breathers,
take it slowly step-by step....and see what can be done


I am sorry if I made someone feel bad and let you wait for such a long time

First of all - this isn't made up, jibberish or some hoax...and this isn't about any of those "read this and you'll be successful in 20 seconds guaranteed!" books either.

I am talking about the book "The Artist's Way" from Julia Cameron !

A half year ago I never would've thought that it might change my life, for reals!

I walked into the bookstore and for some reason the book caught my attention. It was quite cheap and it looked interesting, something deep within me told me that I should buy it. I didn't because I needed to save money...
But then it was digging through my mind the WHOLE day long... I really felt bad and I KNEW that I made a mistake.
So the next day I went to the bookstore again and bought it right away. It was still waiting for me there
THANK GOD that I went there and bought it!

Really, thank God, because what happened afterwards was something I never imagined to be possible for someone like me.

The book is basically a tool.... Therefore, the outcome of reading the book can vary by each person. But the outcome is always positive.


The main point is> everything can work out only if you are doing 2 things>

1. - WRITING a journal EVERY MORNING -  3 pages! Not more, not less. Only 3 pages each morning. Without rushing, without really thinking and withou reading what you have written or correcting the mistakes.

2. - You NEED to go on DATES with YOURSELF. ONLY yourself. You have to take 2 hours a week to spend only with your self - while going to places you want to, never were there before, or some nice events you wish to go to - concerts, movies, galleries.... bookstores, shopping center...a walk through a park, a bicycle ride through some nice street...something smart and cultural which will fill you with nice memories and experience.

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I am doing this almost a year now - 10 months to be precise -and  I must say!
         
                                   ...MY GOOOODNESSS....!!!

Doing only these two small things gave me courage, strength, overwiev, showed me new horizons, opened up my eyes which were closed for such a long time....
I noticed so many small mistakes in my life, which were so FATAL in those amounts... They robbed me off of everything positive and I was wondering why I always felt so stuck, so lifeless, so hopeless, lonely....

I felt like I can't create, that I am in a vicious circle which can't be broken because I am too powerless...

I felt like crap, I couldn't draw properly... I was stuck in an artist's block...I didn't feel well in my skin....

The truth is, everyone has the strength they need - but you have to pen up your eyes first - to everyone and everything.

By writing those pages my mind somehow discovered many things about my self that I didn't know about or didn't recognize them as mistakes, faults, feelings of guilt, sadness, feelings of shame, fear or even jealousy.
After opening up my wounds I was able to close them...And after opening up I felt like I still can do a lot of things to change my state.

Even people arround me told me that I changed A LOT. Not only how I look but also the way I speak and act.

It gave me so much courage. And I am finally starting to CREATE in stead of only THINKING about it.

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If you have some time and money, I really REALLY recommend you this wonderful book which can only be called Gift from Heavens.

It doesn't matter who you are or what your beliefs are - the book itself is so clever one can only applaud. :applause:

Plus, the author herself had been through a lot of hard stuff. She took her last resources of strength to stand up again. She met so many people, she helped so many of them and many of them helped her and encouraged her to finish the book up so it can help many more people.

You can visit her page here and have a sneek peek>
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You can read more here>
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You can buy the book here>
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You can probably download it here, but I recommend to buy it! IT's a lot better! I haven't checked the torrents, though>so do it at your own risk>
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You know, there aren't many books that actually work with your very soul. The power is in you - the book is mainly a guide for you to be able to open up more. If you do the first step, many wonderful things will surely happen afterwards.

Don't expect miracles right away. It's a lot of hard work...even if it seems like a piece of cake, it isn't. But I can asure you that everything you invest there will be paid off!

It's really hard as heck to write everyday...I my self wasn't able to do it everyday.... I regret each day I don't write those 3 pages... But I never truly stopped writing and I will do my best to write everytime I have the possibility to.
Since the book is also encouraging to spread the news and help others, I wanted to share it.
I will post this journal also on my other account.

So, remember that all the answers are within you, you just need to listen

Take good care and be sure to check it out!!!


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original art account :

I made a second account for mostly original art...well...experiments and stuff. I am trying to search for a fitting style so I don't know what I might post there or not... I guess I'll pick the best and upload it
As for this account - I AM NOT LEAVING IT I will keep this one for fanart MOSTLY... For Naruto stuff and for watching.

So if you are interested in some original scribble, scrabble.... Or want to learn more about me through original art, then be free to watch me here> I'll be superextrahappy.







Once again I repeat - I am not leaving this one alone, I'll update stuff on both accounts


Take good care, guys!

Okay, guys....

First of all...HELLO, it's been only...a YEAR since I updated the journal. Yeah....haha.

Maybe I just wanted to keep the nice feeling the last journal had. Because this one isn't going to be like that probably.


Ever since I ended the TUQ series (it's still not properly closed up, but I consider it ended. I still think about the extras and specials and I still want to make them. Hopefully someone will still watch me when they're done XD) I kind of slept in.
It wasn't really my fault because many depressing and bad things had happened...
These things robbed me off of any spiritual or physical power to do anything nice....

When I wanted to start the online comic, my mood dropped because I had many problems concerning school, friends and a bit family too.

My dog had died. I loved that dog maybe even more than some people I know He was there everyday, he was there when I cried, when I was bullied, when I grew up.... It was a slap in the face, literally. And the most amazing thing - he was loyal to me even though I had been treating him quite badly when I was small.

Then I had some issues with my friends which I don't want to bring up here. One of them had kicked me in the ass in the most disguisting manner I could've imagined. I also had some issues with very close people, I had a really hard time in school and in my non-existing but still torturing love-life.

I had problems with my self.

I really, really needed a long break to clear my head and find out what to do next. What my next step would be.

I only figured, that my life till now hadn't been that fulfilled, that I was neglecting people and my art.
I was in panic because of many stupid things that may seem petty to 99 percent of population.

And I really didn't feel that well.

I am currently doing my master work and movie. It had been really exhausting and I have to finish it no matter what.


THE POINT OF THIS ENTRY: I am very truly sorry to not have responded/not commented/not posting anything promised....
I even apologize for the non-existing online comic that I was so looking forward to It probably won't be made so easily, if ever. I have just so many ideas and projects in my head that I don't know where to start, how to hold the pen, how to write it up...

I don't know if Sharkie will ever come to life more than once, but I will try to make at least a little comic about him, because I really love him and I was very happy to have read those supernice comments from last entry.

DA had been so inspiring for me, but now I have come to the point where I only watch art and start to feel inferior to almost everyone arround me. All the arts and watches, everything is mixing up and now I know that my artist block had been existing because I never created as much as I wanted.... because I was lacking on power.

I am considering making another DA account for original art only - to recover from all the fanart that had been blinding me.
I am not planning on deleting/giving up on this account, either. I will keep this one for the fanarts that will come eventually...
and I'll try to make something out of my own stuff on the second one. But it's not really official or anything, I am just toying arround with the idea.

I hope you've been healthy and well

And I know that I have lost the majority of my active watchers because of this huge gap in time.... gap in quality, quantity....
Those who had been watching me till today, I want to truly thank you from the bottom of my heart, for you've been very soothing for my soul whenever I posted some crappy sketch or anything totally unrelated to the fandom. I was very happy and I am still very happy and feeling much better.




And to add something nice to the end:
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I have been working on this video for almost three years, ... I started it arround 2009 and then I lost my energy....
Today, I finished it up and though it is kind of mixed up and everything (because my drawing changed a lot since then), I still want to present it to you It's an original story. I won't spoil it, but it revolves around nightmares of a girl. The plot actually changed a lot too, after the years. Some of my friends read the first 40 pages...but it had lacked on unity, in my eyes, so I'll have to remaster it.
Maybe I'll say some more some other time but you can find some of related pictures in my gallery and scraps

Here the link:
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thank you very much for reading till this point Hugging you and looking forward for a brighter artistic future with you guys.



Take care!

PS: The TUQ specials....I really, really want them to do. I just don't have much time...but I'll try.