First of all...HELLO, it's been only...a YEAR since I updated the journal. Yeah....haha.
Maybe I just wanted to keep the nice feeling the last journal had. Because this one isn't going to be like that probably.
Ever since I ended the TUQ series (it's still not properly closed up, but I consider it ended. I still think about the extras and specials and I still want to make them. Hopefully someone will still watch me when they're done XD) I kind of slept in.
It wasn't really my fault because many depressing and bad things had happened...
These things robbed me off of any spiritual or physical power to do anything nice....
When I wanted to start the online comic, my mood dropped because I had many problems concerning school, friends and a bit family too.
My dog had died. I loved that dog maybe even more than some people I know
He was there everyday, he was there when I cried, when I was bullied, when I grew up.... It was a slap in the face, literally. And the most amazing thing - he was loyal to me even though I had been treating him quite badly when I was small.
Then I had some issues with my friends which I don't want to bring up here. One of them had kicked me in the ass in the most disguisting manner I could've imagined. I also had some issues with very close people, I had a really hard time in school and in my non-existing but still torturing love-life.
I had problems with my self.
I really, really needed a long break to clear my head and find out what to do next. What my next step would be.
I only figured, that my life till now hadn't been that fulfilled, that I was neglecting people and my art.
I was in panic because of many stupid things that may seem petty to 99 percent of population.
And I really didn't feel that well.
I am currently doing my master work and movie. It had been really exhausting and I have to finish it no matter what.
THE POINT OF THIS ENTRY: I am very truly sorry to not have responded/not commented/not posting anything promised....
I even apologize for the non-existing online comic that I was so looking forward to
It probably won't be made so easily, if ever. I have just so many ideas and projects in my head that I don't know where to start, how to hold the pen, how to write it up...
I don't know if Sharkie will ever come to life more than once, but I will try to make at least a little comic about him, because I really love him and I was very happy to have read those supernice comments from last entry.
DA had been so inspiring for me, but now I have come to the point where I only watch art and start to feel inferior to almost everyone arround me. All the arts and watches, everything is mixing up and now I know that my artist block had been existing because I never created as much as I wanted.... because I was lacking on power.
I am considering making another DA account for original art only - to recover from all the fanart that had been blinding me.
I am not planning on deleting/giving up on this account, either. I will keep this one for the fanarts that will come eventually...
and I'll try to make something out of my own stuff on the second one. But it's not really official or anything, I am just toying arround with the idea.
I hope you've been healthy and well
And I know that I have lost the majority of my active watchers because of this huge gap in time.... gap in quality, quantity....
Those who had been watching me till today, I want to truly thank you from the bottom of my heart, for you've been very soothing for my soul whenever I posted some crappy sketch or anything totally unrelated to the fandom. I was very happy and I am still very happy and feeling much better.
And to add something nice to the end:
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I have been working on this video for almost three years, ... I started it arround 2009 and then I lost my energy....
Today, I finished it up and though it is kind of mixed up and everything (because my drawing changed a lot since then), I still want to present it to you
It's an original story. I won't spoil it, but it revolves around nightmares of a girl. The plot actually changed a lot too, after the years. Some of my friends read the first 40 pages...but it had lacked on unity, in my eyes, so I'll have to remaster it.
Maybe I'll say some more some other time but you can find some of related pictures in my gallery and scraps
Here the link:[link]
thank you very much for reading till this point
Hugging you and looking forward for a brighter artistic future with you guys.
PS: The TUQ specials....I really, really want them to do. I just don't have much time...but I'll try.